Amaths paper 2, was difficult. Yea...like Emaths...paper 1 is giveaways while paper 2 is takeaways. Amaths is the same! haha..paper 1 is giveaways and paper 2 is takeaways. Well...actually it's still not difficult. It's just that I am not well prepared. I realised I was not confident at all with most of the answers. I even stopped half way to the answer for some questions. After the paper ended, I went to CC to try some of the questions...oh..it's just me with no confident. I can actually get the answer...but I was not confident and thought why waste time on this unlikely-to-be-the-answer workings? haha..
It's a bit unfair cos' usually surface area formula of cone is given(like in tys). But Mr Tay with his "It's better to memorise", didnt provide us. HAha...6 marks gone. 10 marks gone for qn 12 and 6 more gone for velocity. Others are no time to think or no confident...wasted. ahha..and i was quite irritated with the invigilator..the HOD 'nyonya'. Walao! She always walk at my area...distracting me..then like act 'cough'. She does it as though I did something wrong...i know I am very slow la..but distracting me like dat is not fair for me. And I am weak in vectors.
OK...so today, I went to CC again. I was feeling more angry than tired. But in CC, i felt asleep. HAHA. I looked thru my Amaths paper 2...redo some. Calculated my lost marks...it's abt 47 marks lost. You know what that means...right? Fail. Damn...then I do my physics..ONLY. Did about 2 topics...ONLY. I was soooo behind time..cos' I was having a stupid migraine that held me back. Physics blue book and Emaths tys to be done. I hope I hv so much energy tonite to stay awake and complete them till tomorrow. But usually, i will end up sleeping la. =__=''
For some reasons, I am becoming to like English. No! Not the comprehension...but in writings. :) Oh well, will it make any different to the current state of my English? No use making such a statement.
Anyway, I'm back on track.
I was quite disappointed when Mr Tay say that the Amaths paper was easy. I mean, I cannot expect such things in the real O lvl. Maybe to others who cant do the paper, it is quite demoralising. TYS is all you need to build up your basic foundations as well as exposure. That's what I realised when some ppl ask me questions. EVEN i forgot some concept. I guess what Mr Tay said is true. Do TYS. :) Gosh...I haven done my Emaths TYS...there's a lot to cover!
Anyway blog, I will take you as my friend from now on. :)
I told someone, my only aim for this prelim is to pass EL. I guess with the fact that I failed my EL means I have failed myself. I was quite confident that I will pass back there, but the result prove me wrong.
I am running away...leaving bad memories to them...I'm gone :D
I know I've failed again. MAN! FARK! I am not demoralised...I am just angry! ok...dont exaggerate. But i am truly vexed. She told me at the wrong day and time. Physics paper was quite tough despite doing the red book, then came Ms Tan with her, "I think you have to do essay for me...". Oh great...another unproductive effort. "Ok," is all i said to end the conversation.
Hmm..what went wrong? I spent too much time on convincing myself what the answer for the comprehension question is to be. And not much time for summary. Worst of all, I guess the convincing part was not at all worth it. I guess I will have to practice more. Still got two more assesment book for EL. Will finish them before Olvl.
I am still progressing on my Amaths, Emaths and Chemistry. With all these done...I will concentrate on my physics and comb humanities. I must find a way to make myself remember the facts. I think I've got it. :) But still need to read the txtbook.
Goodnews: My migraine going away. Soon I will be back on track. Badnews(forever): EL fail
I feel funny, happy, bored, lazy.. Today, had my History paper. It was damn jialat. Not really ar. I didnt finish the structured and 1 source based. Social Studies also..worse than history. I already stated my reason for not doing well for SS. haha...migraine and reading the txtbook is as good as not touching it. Actually..history, all i did is read my notes. haha..scared too much info cannot absorb. So my notes is the best summarised version. Although a lot of points i missed out, it's better than SS which i know nothing at all.
Amaths paper...was surprisingly easy. Well...i hope I am smart enough la, but I dunno qn 4. Lost at least 4marks. haha...it doest mean I am good la. I may make a lot of mistakes....especially function! I know how to do but dunno how to express it. Besides, there's Amaths paper 2 coming. Tomorrow is physics. I really need to study chapters on electricity and radiation. Very weak at those.
Flashbacks>>> Emaths paper 1 was a BLISSSS. Emaths paper 2,...OH PUHLEASEE....no time to finish sia! Quite difficult somemore. I scared Amaths paper 2 also same x__x Chemistry was ok. fair.
Oh well..I look towards saving money to buy laptop and develop my interest in vocal. I have not been saving money ever since I keep the habit of going to CC to study almost everyday, even after school. Fasting month is coming...I think I will be able to save again. And at the same time...do well for my examinations. I am too much I guess.
I mean, I hv neglected myself from teens world and teens angst that now I am who I am now. Or maybe I had a lonely childhood which led to this problem. Whatever it is, I think my must learn to be a teen..like others. Must learn to complain, must learn to dislike, must learn to be more naive. Wouldn't that make me an irritating bugger?
Stupid. I should remain for who I am. :D Wow...having a blog to post nonsense is quite fun. lol. Haha...actually I like fasting month. It's the only time any human can appreciate food EVEN if they taste not as good as what ur tongue's would consider delicious. Without fasting, u will never know how delicious a food actually is. :D And also...water become more precious to u.. So what i enjoy most is the breaking of fast. :D HAHAHA...it feels so good to eat by that time...at the same time..grow fat so easily. =__=''
I dont know about my condition. Maybe getting worse. Yesterday...whatever I read is lost instantly. My SS textbook and notes that i've read is as good as not touching them. However, today when I read some comprehension passage in CC...I can understand it. And yea, I did 3 topics of physics. Tomorrow may be my last day going CC because Sunday is already the starting of fasting month. I don't know how am I going to study by then. I need to find a solution. But often, they're not supported by my mom. Urgh! Can't she sense my urgency? I also did try to bring her attention to my migraine problem. She said go to the nearest clinic. Urgh!..it's EXpensive!! Why not just go to polyclinic!? She still needs money...and so do i. So with that suggestion of going to the nearest clinic, i shall call off the visit to the doctor.
Now my next problem is the fasting month. How to study? My mom still have doubt of me going to the nearest mosque in West Coast...she always say it's far from CC. I was like, so what? Can walk what...tat's what I always do on Friday. However, I wanna upped my demand. I want to bring a bike there...so I can cut the time of walking. You know...come and go to mosque. Furthermore...I hv religious test...urgh! Some period as prelims!!! And also the religious national exam...same period as OLVL!!.. solutions solutions...
I dunno whether I am still going to have migraine..cos' i am still sane. However...I am still...having mix feelings...arghh... I feel as though I hv forgotten a time of the past..a period of time... Today, I saw someone's bro..I was thinking, how come I dont hv. Then after CC, I saw a cat...it reminded me of urrgh... Can someone beat me up?
OK...am I sane? or insane? Nevermind.
I must stand still. I think I am back to myself. It just come and go...hmm..wonder why. Two different person in me? Ok fine...think my mood is changing...damn..i dun want to hv migraine anymore...
Ever since I came back from CC on Sunday, I am feeling numb. Yesterday, I felt that everyone in class and in CC was against me. And then I went for a haircut...which looks so yuck. Actually, all I wanted is to have the hair touching my neck and ears to be cut, but it turned out that a large scale of my sides were cut.Oh well...at first i was like: WADDEe...(then)..oh well...what is done is done. =__= Anyway..
Today, I had little confident cos' of my hair and also the fact that I was late AND for not studying for SS. I served 2 hours detention outside the staff room. I was having lots of negative thoughts. I dislike what that Mrs Tan did...urgh..i felt as though she's being prejudice towards me. I think my lack of showing my cool side has deteriorated the respect that I should get. (Lol...since when did i deserve such respect? LOL) Okay..that was what i thought...my negative shits running wild. After 2 hours of vex, I head down to the toilet...not to actually do my hair...but to wash my face. Saw Kamal...i ask him: "What's the different between migraine and headache" As usual, he would answer formally for whatever reason...but I like it. So yea, I think i am actually having migraine and not headache. Maybe I should consult a neurologist. Would it be costly? no yes yes? Then forget it. :D
This is what I get from the web: "Migraine without aura is the most prevalent type and may occur on one or both sides (bilateral) of the head. Tiredness or mood changes may be experienced the day before the headache. Nausea, vomiting, and sensitivity to light (photophobia) often accompany migraine without aura." -
"Migraine with aura is characterized by a neurological phenomenon (aura) that is experienced 10 to 30 minutes before the headache. Most auras are visual and are described as bright shimmering lights around objects or at the edges of the field of vision (called scintillating scotomas) or zigzag lines, wavy images, or hallucinations. Others experience temporary vision loss.
Nonvisual auras include motor weakness, speech or language abnormalities, dizziness, vertigo, and tingling or numbness (parasthesia) of the face, tongue, or extremities."
I guess I am having a general one then. Evidence: Change of mood (numb feeling and negative) and headache today Signs and symptoms: Hands feel cold...? Bullshit it's cos i m in the aircon room. haha.
I found another mistake. It seems like the reason why I progress very slowly is due to my slow in thinking process. I really think slowly of what to do when I actually read the Amaths qns. So another point taken, I must not take my time to think.
Next is my hair. It is getting longer! I had my 'botak' haircut in June. Now in mid September, it's time to have it cut again. I think I just want to have the sides cut. It feels really irritating when it touches my ears and my neck.
Then I must also take precaution during studying. I must not twirl my pens. And I must wear sweater when going CC. It's getting colder. My body cannot withstand the cold temperature anymore, especially when other muggers in the room ser the degree so low. I will have to wear long sleeves. If I hv a pair of glove to keep my hands warm, I would put them on too.
Still not happy. I didn't have time to finish my maths. I realised I was too tired that i woke up at 9am this morning. I was awake by 6am...then trying to do my work, and eventually, I fell asleep till 9am. By then, my concentration has gone. I checked the forum for any new stuffs, but nothing. Thus, I ended up making noise pollution and didn't do my work till 12.
At about 4pm, I went to CC. I wonder if I actually open the door so hard every time that everyone is always looking at me. GEE..distrupt them from studying :) Haix...tomorrow I am going to waste $7 on haircut. I mean, it's only the side that bothers me..the top part is alright. Anyway, it's better than being call out in school regarding my attire.
Despite the hours of sitting solving my Amaths TYS questions, I still don't feel any sense of accomplishment. Last night, I told my mom about my plans. I want to complete differentiation by that night, complete integration by today...and complete relative velocity on Friday. The first thing she say was, I need to sleep...then say I need to rest etc. I was just trying to get her support to let me stay up late or go to CC everyday and be home late. I want to tell her it's not as simple as 4-7hours of studying = I am very smart/hardworking. Ok...maybe I m wrong, it's all about my health.
So today, someone asked me about my revisions. She asked me what time I sleep every night, what hv i revised, etc. Well...I've completed most of my notes, but never on 'hands-on' stuff. I think I should just list out what I actually want to complete.
1) Amaths TYS 2) Emaths TYS 3) Physics (blue book) TYS 4) Chemistry FYS (at least 1 year) 5) Memorise all monster's sheets (the most important ones) 6) Complete (past years) prelim examination papers (at least one of each sub) *All EL assessment is to be done almost everyday where there's time. [EL need practice]
These are some of it I can remember. And I want to complete them by THIS month. So far, what I have done is only my physics (multiple choice) TYS. And it's like only 1/10. And I finished the Physics TYS in 6 days when I actually wanted to finish it in 5days. Today is 14 of september. I hv 16 days left to complete what I want to for this month. By next month, I want to get everything perfect. There, the exposure of Mr Cool's plan. And today, I have not even done one question of integration...damn how to complete!?! I want to complete integration today!! Argh..haha... OK, some ass will tell me to get real. Here's my reply: Look who's talking.
I am not intelligent like some of my classmates who can get distinction even with last minute preparation. I am not hardworking either, and I hate to be called a hardworker. I feel that being described as 'hardworking' is like you are FORCING yourself. So I would rather not be called 'hardworking'. Just call me a cool student will do. :D Cos' I am really cool :P.
Not knowing what stress is, can sometimes be an advantage. :)
This is bad. My EL results show no improvement but deterioration. I wonder what has changed my EL teacher attitude towards me. Is it because of my Teachers' Day card? I said i wanna get A1s for all sub. :D I hope to get more attention because I need help. She's still has the mindset of me being weak in everything though. I am just too afraid to say that I am good at some subjects. I am not weak for sure.
It seems like I am left behind in English. I think I should observe what and how others think when they answer comprehension questions. With Nancy, I realised that she is faster in getting what the passage is trying to say. I'm too slow for her. I have to read a sentence for 3-5 times before I actually get what it is saying. I was fortunate that she did not bring her EL FYS and had to share with me that day, or else I will never find out what are my weaknesses.
Well today, we had great time wasting time. All thanks to the 'monster', as the class call it. She wanted us to stay back after school to study. With the class ill-discipline, pessismistic attitude and her absent, we end up wasting time. One thing for sure is that I realised that we are not like other students in other schools where the students actually take their time to go to library to study and mug. We are always fooling around. Despite the coming prelim examinations, we are still not serious. It seems like we have no sense of urgency. I can sense the teachers' anger now. However, I still think monster's way of drilling us is wrong. Our class is unlike any others. We're bunch of wild monkeys, and leaving us alone in the class or even with her around, wouldn't budged us a bit.
I'm trying to complete my physics TYS(multiple choice) in 5 days. Everything went smoothly until yesterday when I found out I hv tons of schoolwork haven't completed. I am supposed to complete the whole book by today. I have 4 chapters left? Oh well...it's either I do it tonight or tomorrow.
I still have Amaths and Emaths TYS to be done. The class received some good lecture from the Maths teacher today. Yes! He rocks. He has the attitude of 'let the past be the past and concentrate on what you are going to do now'. I am only completing my physics and maths. Emaths still have miles to go, but quite simple...so is Amaths. It's just that I need some help in understanding some concept on differentiation and integration. Although this guy rocks, I feel that he isn't paying any attention to me. Yes, I understand...he got the whole class to take care of. I think i will have to chase that white-haired teacher then. His verbal explanation may be fast and confusing but he is willing to give me a visual form of explanation. :D I understand that way better.
Many people asked me whether I am stressed, my answer is 'no'. Well, I don't really know what stress is. But whenever i did something wrong or lazy, I will say I am stressed :P. HAHA...just an excuse. Maybe I am really stressed but I don't feel it. And during recess, someone say I am getting crazy cos' of stress. Changing my voice and disturb Wei Zhou 'breaking voice'. :D Well, I was just trying to appear cheerful and friendly.
Oh, today physics practical. It's really bad. The first question was like totally new to us. Or was it not? lol. Well, i will have to learn from my mistake then. Argh..
It's a bit unusual today in CC. Too many muggers and I was fortunate that there was 1 seat left. The Clementi Town regular mugger were there too, probably it's that girl who introduce the place to them. And I don't like my action today. I kept spinning the pens and it drop for like so many times...yet I was so arrogant and kept spinning. I was listening to my MP3, so I am not so bothered. :D A little bit inconsiderate of me. Then, I saw a cutie and a boy. Since there was not enough chair, they share seat. The girl looks more like a secondary school girl and the boy looks like some sort of primary or kindergarden kid. I don't know...but anyway, I was leaving by then. However, I didn't take the initiative to take the chair to them. Instead, i went to her and say, "You need a chair? there.." Ehh...sounds rude sia. lol. Overall, i really dislike my attitude in CC today. So arrogant. Forgot to smile and i feel like I am acting 'action' or 'cute'. +__+ Yuck!
Yea! Second post! :P I know it's a bit late...but I have no happy thing to post. So I write about the teachers' day celebration....AGAIN(another blog, write liao). This blog is still under construction tho...:D
Okok... the Teachers' Day celebration was fascinating.There's buffet and geeks, and my class...we hv our own original stuff. Nath, the vocalist + guitarist and me, the illusion guy. Nath was singing out of his vocal range, and so he has to strain..ahaha..that part was funny but the whole thing was cool, especially with Mrs Loo looking so interested in the music. haha. Then it was my turn. WELL...I wasn't PREPARED..so I have to IMPROVISED. =__=''
Gee..I did the same old outdated stuff. I didnt think of adding some waves in my 'dance' except for the most demanding move, 'moonwalk'. Mdm Fong commented: no more law of friction. haha. Upon moonwalking, I actually bled my toenail...but thanks to the excited audiences that I kept on going.
The most enjoyable part of the event was no other than the food. :DIt's my first breakfast for the week. :D I ate a lot! I love the chicken! :PThen the cake! YUMMY!! Gosh, i didnt realised that I actually spoonfed Sherly with one of the cakes. Hahaha...nevermind, it's so sweet of me. HAHAA. It was to test for the present of alcohol. So we use Sherly + Cake = "yes! got alcohol!" Then I took that white cake. AHH!! It's delicious!! I took two of it. :XThe chocolate taste...the yummy chocolate...still lingering in my mind...then the chicken...tasted like pizza...ahha....AHH!! YUMMY!
The girls are shouting the guys are posing. I still hv that white uniform on my shoulder..haha...easy for me to identify myself :P
There, our vice principal joining us...wahh!! Hey, LOOK properly at the girl at the left hand side...the one bending with her mouth open. :P She looks the same on the first photo! She's wearing a mask!? :P
This is what I like about my class...full of sadistic stuff!! My first time kena stack...but just coincidentally...cos' Irwan was behind me and everyone targeted him....I also kena. :P
Still struggling to escape..I thought I am going to break my leg. =__='' Anyway, the class really made the right choice of not stacking me before till then. I'm too dangerous for you all. :P
The first one was Mr. Cool showing a move he never done before. Then the next was so call Michael Jackson Billie Jean dance. =__=''
Here's another... Improvised again. But I like this one...especially around 40-45seconds. Never thought that move can be done. AHAHA...
Hi. The only reason for creating this blog is to satisfy those KPOs so that they could link me and read freely. So yea, Welcome to Mr Cool blog - Disclosure of Mr. Cool. :P
