I must learn from my mistake...
Yesterday was a bad day. Today sounds worse but i like it.
A customer left Pizza Hut without paying the bills. I am to be blamed. When they were dining in the restaurant, I overheard some unpleasant conversation...one of the phrases is "I'll just beat". I should have trusted my thought. I actually sensed danger and i feel like they're going to make a crime. Then I felt as though I'm being so paranoid. Why should i be suspicious? They will pay...*doubt*.
And so, I really didnt take it seriously. I hold them outside the lift. Then ask. Then I went inside restaurant to see customers. I feel uneasy...still i didnt take seriously. =.= And i saw him near the ATM machine. (cos' he say he is taking money...then I decided not to let him see me...cos I dun wanna b so busy-body as if they're not gonna pay). Yea...my mistake for not being busybody. =.="
I decided to use my hp cam but I'm still not use to it. So I can't really spy...and i really take it easy.
I feel bad..hais...I'm seen quite hopeless, i guess.
This will be my reason to be a 'spy' again. Whenever i sense smth weird, I will hv to wear my spy personality. I know i sound kinda childish, it's cos' the last time i use this 'spy' personality was when i was in primary sch. So 'spy' derived from my kid's brain lor.
With this, I feel tat i hv a better reason to be learning martial art to protect my workplace n colleague from this kinda thing again. Remember...one of the guys said, "I'll just beat.."
What i feel is tat..when 1 of us(workers) try to stop him, he will beat him.
I didnt tell this to my colleague. Cos' I know no one will believe me if i say i sensed tat 'danger'. Even if they believe, they might blame me. And worse still, they might think i'm mad. But I'm telling u guys here...cos' i'm just sharing my day.
Another thing is one customer...he kept looking at my colleague (a girl). He's quite suspicious and he sat there so long. =.= I thought he is the anonymous customer. Then I think tat smth is not right...at 10:??, I went to look for the 'escaped' customer, he was under the block too. Then when i go home, i still saw him. I'm trying to warn my colleagues...by asking my cousin for one of their numbers. But no response. I guess, i shouldnt care....gee...i'm taking it lightly again..cos' i dun wanna look stupid. He might be one of their bf? I ask of my colleague...she dunno him. Hmm..up till now, no reply from my cousin. Nevermind, at least I was trying to warn her...but couldnt.
Anyway...it's smth i like.. it's like my adventure has just begun.
Not good...
Hais...still sick.
I was lost just now...to reach ECP.
Then in pizza...I caught up a lot.
In the schedule list...I seems to be useless...got "sack" in the remark.
Hais..=.="
Stupid day...smart me =.="
Sick and tired of my life
I've been trying to be positive and lie to myself on the good points. Whatever it is, the fact that my life sucks is something I am unable to change. I wanna quit. I wanna hv my own freedom. I just wanna be myself.
Anyway...I played very hard on Tuesday night in my uncle's house. We played PS2 for abt 12-16 hours? We played from tuesday night till afternoon at 12pm on wednesday. Then we slept till 6pm in the evening...almost at the same time. lol. I wanted to lend his weights...but he has to leave for work already. So I hold on to my demand. Next time can lar.
Then I went to courts to buy a LCD monitor. NEC brand. $100. =.=" cheap huh? I set up myself at home. Something come to my mind. The monitor takes little space. :D Then I feel that maybe I should tidy my stuffs. I wanna make things look neat.
And today, I got myself an hp. 6280. Got it for free. lol. Then I bought the casing...what do u call that? Next, I went to BATA, bought a pair of shoes. I was thinking of buying a black one but I decided to change taste. I chose something else. Even my hp is black. I am really turning back into goth. That's why I wanna change. Furthermore...today I wore ALL black. Shoes black, wrist watch black, shirt black, bottoms black, bag black.....EVEN my UNDERGARMENT is black!! LOL!! I saw a girl wearing a fuchsia top and green skirt, looking so cute in those. haha. Eh eh..i only say cute ok. She's with another girl wearing kinda formal tops and longer skirt. Looks nice too.
Damn it off
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On Sunday, I accompanied my mom to see taufik. She bought his album and wanna see him in IMM. I am not really his fan tho...but still went there. Then in the crowd, I was like the only male(except for my nephew)...and the rest were mostly girls. -.-''
I thought guys should like him too...but it seems that he's more popular among the girls. =.="
Anyway..my mom was in front while i stayed in the middle...and still, I am surrounded by the fans. *sigh*..I was tired of standing for nothing..hear Taufik's singing...and his gesture. Kinda awkward the way he did it. He composed most of the songs in his second album. And he is a sentimental person. I must admit...his songs r not bad..got the originality. Every song he compose....something is always similar...i just couldn't figure it out. Like MJ...smth is always similar in his songs, seems like different ppl has that 'something' that is like similar.
Then another thing was....the fans. Singapore Idol huh? More like malay idol. I hardly see any chinese come to see him. I guess I really lose at thinking that the reason sg idol is really singaporean's idol. Ppl still go for their own race idol. =.="
3-dash-1...all from my Jintai Sec....that band consists of a malay, chinese n tamil. That's what I call cool. I really hope I can hv my own band...with mixed races. And hope that all of us know vocal. And guess what? We will make English, Chinese, Malay and tamil songs. :D I guess that's my new ....aim? I dunno...hope I can learn vocal and find a tamil and chinese vocalist and then form a band. :D
Ok...anything is JOB.
On Sunday night, I called my cousin who is working in a Pizza Hut outlet in clementi. I want her to recommend me a job in that outlet la. I was like damn sian liao...wanna wait for better paid job? Forget it...it's better to hv a $3.5/hour rather than $0/per hour. Today, I went to the outlet and hv an orientation of what pizza hhut is like. There's a lot to learn. Haha...i hope i will overcome my phobia of talking to strangers. =.=" The manager feels that I am soft-spoken, so he make me do service job instead of being in the kitchen. Anyway, this is really my backup. I hv another one...which pw intro to me...Fila. But...hais...i just didnt think through. A lot of ppl hv bourgeois mentality. They would rather hv better paid job. I'm just someone who lives in a like lower-class group. I feel kinda intimidated by the bourgeois' comments. But again...like I always say: I won't die THAT easily.
okok...now...i hv a job.
I hv decided to put away my desire of having the latest hp when i work. I went to singtel shop just now to accompany my mom to upgrade her hp. I am quite satisfy to see her happy with her new hp. I know she wouldnt upgrade if I did not come with her. I use my $30 + her $20 to buy a 1gb memory card. I know she likes Taufik...so I guess I shall put Taufik's songs in her phone...so she can listen.
ok...so I hv to priortise the important things.
1) $400 (in case I hv to retake)
2) Get FREE hp
3) Buy an All-in-one Lexmarks (printer, scanner, copy, photo) (save $200)
4) Laptop (save $2000)
5) Change to wireless internet
6) Buy a cheap digital camera (abt $200?)
7) Upgrade interests(vocal, ninjitsu) and clothings)
8) The rest..
Money Face
I'm damn bored.
I've been trying to find a job.
unproductively.
Anyway, my N.E is over. :)
Now, I will have to find a way to survive.
I believe not many of my friends know that I've been saving money in my secondary school days. My primary intention was to buy a laptop. But due to some days of which I didn't get allowance and also due to the fact that I used some savings to eat when I study in CC, I'm not able to save enough money to buy. In addition, currently, I need to use money to pay for my transports when hunting for jobs.
If this savings is used up, I will have difficulties in find jobs. Not only that, even my mom n uncle often lend money from me. Thus, everyone under one roof will face difficulties.
On Monday, I went to buy eggs, bread and milk. haha...it was for anyone in the house to consume. I feel stupid. Why am I doing all this? I don't know what am I talking either. I just feel that it's not worth it. My uncle never saves and instead keep buying junks to decorate his Hi-Fi. Then he lend money from me...I wonder where did his salary go to. I know I shouldn't be saying this in my blog, but I just wanna voice it out. I will delete certain paragraph in this post later. I hate to be seen by him that it's good that I have a job. I mean it's like duhz! I hate the idea that he will think i can provide financial help for him too! My aim is to save $5000 for myself! I need to buy laptop, HP, my be-myself-clothings and develop my interest(Vocal and ninjitsu etc). I hope to get that $5000 from working and maybe combined with my savings.
Currently, I'm trying to not only find jobs but to also enter competition hoping to win some cash prizes and maybe Ipod or video games....haha...I want some games too. But I guess it's not important for now. Wait till got extra money.
Indo
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Went to Indo..bought many many chewing gums :D First day, i olady chew chew hcew. Second day, chew chew chew :3. This morning also chew chew chew...NOW, i'm also chewing chewing chewing :3. I took some back to sg XD!
okok...besides than my chewing gums :3, i actually had quite an enjoyable time. It's not really slacking holiday or FULL of FUN. But more of learning experiences. That's what that is fun. It was actually one of my relatives' wedding. The wedding of a malay and a 'jawa'. Thus, some things are new. Eg. the languages they use.
I realised how matured the kids there were. I mean they were all living in a kampung house, so the kids hv a world that of different from most of us in sg. Still like the old fashion style, they extract water from well. The maturity of the kids is so cool that i think a 5-6 yr old kid, did road marshalling. And kids of less than 12yrs old is carrying the bamboo stick of 'bunga raya' from place to place. It reminds me of a show...of an african kid. He experienced the painful feeling when a loved one dies. He live in poverty...but mature.
In the hotel, besides than doin my chewing job, I also did some drawings and readings. I was with my cousin on the bed. I was drawing but he was so boliao and wanna play wrestling with me..=.=". He jump and land on me several times. x__x
I cant draw...so I just switch on the TV...and watched with him. Then I draw again but instead of drawing on the bed, I draw on a table. :D....till the others came back lor. The next day..after the wedding ceremony preparations which took almost 10 hours, my cousin n i return to our hotel again while some of the others go shopping. i decided to draw. Again, he can't stop his nonsense. Too tired to layan him. haha...I kept telling him that he's sleepy and tired and he wanna sleep. He counter by saying 'no I'm not'. lol...I dunno how many times i repeated that and he started to say different thing liao...he's confused, i guess. Finally, I told him "I'll leave u now and in five minutes, u will fall asleep". :P
And he really fall asleep. HAHAHAHAA...peace at last. Well..maybe it's due to the 10 hours of non-stop moving that helped me in my hynoptise. Actually, the reason why i wanna draw is cos' I find my drawing skills sux after years of not developing it. It may look 'nice' to small kids but not to my peers or secondary sch brainers. Yea...I dunno why i wanna improve my drawings tho...must hv been inspired by japanese animation.
Then I found out that one of relatives is a reflexologist with some gifted talent. He's quite cool. He read my palm. He say many things abt me...like i can go poly and he even named the two poly that i would choose amongst the other many and they are ngee ann and singapore polytechnic. He can even tell that i want SP more than ngee ann. He says my breathing is not good. I've always told my mom that my breathing is not good and it interfere my speaking ability but she didnt wanna accept it till then. I must still say it's not so accurate la. But the ideas r there. He told me not to always believe this palm reading. =.=" True..shouldn't believe but what is true, I'll just accept it. He can even tell that I hv migraine and offered reflexology. I've heard many things abt reflexology...and so I just wanna try. :D
That night, he did it on me...it hurts a lot. haha...he is quite fun la. He has some special abilities for the reflex thing. However, he loves to cook. =.="
My trip back to sg was quite cool. I hv to carry a lot of loads. My mom bought a lot of foodstuffs...and they can be really heavy...=.='' I guess I am ready to work as a logistic liao cos' I can carry quite heavy stuffs.
OH well...too long to say it all. End here.
